Only the World

Do you ever just have one of those days where nothing seems to be going your way? I have had a couple of them. It started yesterday when the battery died in our van. However, if there is such a thing as a convenient time for a such thing to happen, God provided. We didn't have pre-school yesterday; I just had to work at 5:00 and I had my van back just in time. However, what has really been bothering me is my eyes. They have been giving me a hard time since May. Yesterday evening was the straw that broke the camel's back. I happened to be at work and my eyes were blood red and tears (not of pain or sadness) kept streaming down my face. I tried to let my co-worker deal with the customers as much as possible so as not to scare anyone away. I have been to the doctor twice (once I was told I have iritis and another time they thought it was seasonal allergies) and have been prescribed two different eye drops (to the tune of a lot of money) but nothing seemed to be working. I figured enough is enough; I am going back to the eye doctor.

So this morning, after dropping Madeleine off at pre-school, Audrey and I went to the eye doctor. Yes, Audrey came along. :) I packed a backpack with books, toys, and fruit snacks hoping that would keep her busy. WRONG! While I was in the doctor's chair trying to explain my eye woes, I noticed I was being lifted into the air. I turned and looked to find Audrey pushing buttons on the chair. So, I excused myself and set her back in the corner with her toys. Wrong again. That made her very angry. Thankfully, my eye doctor was very kind and patient and just politely talked over her screaming.

As it turns out, the doctor thinks I may have developed an allergy to my contact sollution. I was prescribed more drops and told to come back in two weeks. After two weeks of using the drops he will be able to tell if it is indeed my contact sollution that I am allergic to or if I have a virus in my eye.

At this point I start throwing myself a pitty party. I start thinking about how I may never be able to wear contacts again (I hate wearing glasses), I am going to have to drop more money on an itty bitty bottle of eye drops after spending big bucks on eye drops that didn't work, and I dropped a load of money on a new car batter yesterday. Do people think I am made of money?! As I am throwing my pitty party, a song came on the radio and it was just the reminder I needed:

Been a hard one, Been a bad one

Been a tough one, Been a sad one

It's been one of those days that keeps chipping away at my heart

Nothing new here, It's what I do here

its a stereotypical day, in the life

I'm surrounded by all of the pain and the strife

but I know it's alright

Chours: Cause it's only the world i'm living in

It's only today i've been given

There ain't no way i'm giving in

Cause it's only the world (oh cause it's only the world)

I know the best is still yet to come

Cause even when my days in the world are done

There's gonna be so much more than only the world for me

yeah its only the world

Anybody can you hear me?

Do you feel me? I mean, do you feel me?

I know I'm not the only one wearing the weight of this world

We got problems

Just remember

Take a good look around we're just stuck on the ground for a little while

Don't it make you smile

Repeat Chorus

Heaven is a place where the tears on every face will be wiped away

Oh And I can't wait to go, but for now it's enough to know

This is only temporary this is only, Yeah, Alright!

That is a song by Mandisa (thus the picture of her on my blog) and I truly believe God played it for me at that moment to remind me that this is only the world I am living in. So what if if I have to drop money here or there for things I'd rather not be spending money on, because this is only the world & those inconveniences are only temporary. In the meantime I have a lot of blessings in my life that I plan to enjoy while I am on this earth.